15 Minutes of Truth

Yes, I am still on my honesty binge. Hee hee hee!

I wish some special features could be added to our existence. Why not have the veil of self- deception open once a month for 15 minutes? I think I could be brave enough to let the truth rip as I sit on my couch with a Cartier fag and cup of coffee.

It is tricky shit being a conscious creator of one’s life experience. I know what I want, but parts of me that I am initially unconscious to are engaged in the opposite of what I want…and the wheel can’t turn in both directions. That is what I tell my clients. “You say you want one thing, but the decisions you are making are not in support of what you say you want.”

Gary Zukov in his book, The Seat of the Soul, explained we are splintered and the journey of self mastery is to bring the splintered parts of ourselves into the light of consciousness. Carl Jung said the same thing and called it, individuation. I love Carl Jung! Reading him and those that edited his work helped me tremendously.

It is a magical world really and boredom is out of the question. A couple of posts ago I was longing to hear a violin in the street. Yesterday in the Leicester Square tube I heard it! Ask and it is given! I have all the tools and I know the way forward. There are always omens and signs, thus the importance of being conscious.

I feel wonderful! I ended my ‘friendship’ with the man who was not really a true friend. I have not written any details here, mostly because relationship details are so long and laborious to relay. I think on some level we always know when we are deceiving ourselves, but maybe we are too lazy or afraid to act and make decisions that seem hard. It takes time usually and that is ok.

Borrowing a line from a Dave Mathew’s song I shall say, “I am sitting on top of the world with my legs hanging free…” I love his music and am happy to be alive while he is…and he is not the only one on that list.

Love to all
Valerie